jill123

I am looking for a walking buddy that lives in or near toledo. If you are interested let me know.

Hi everyone.  I have not been on the site for sometime and the reason because i felt like i was lying to myself.  Coming to the site with great intention and for a few weeks doing great with the diet.  Then one false move and i was off the wagon.  Back to eating more and moving less. Oh sure I have had a few intervals of healthy diet and some exercise yet one false move and i was tko’d again.  I can’t understand why this happens so often to me.  Yes i know i am an emotional eater so i put that in check.  I know all of the risks of being heavy my god i see it all the time at work.  Do i just lake motivation or am i just plain lazy.  I know i do not like being fat.  I want to be at a weight that i can do small every day activities and not need an oxygen tank.  Then when my monthly friend roles around i get the worst cravings for junk and i give in like a 2 year old!  Having to worry about every bite i put into my mouth is starting wreck my brain.  I lose weight on low carb but i hate eggs so i get defeted at breakfast.  If i follow like the ww core program i feel like that is not enough reins around my neck.  Exercise - I HATE IT!!!!!  On days that i work 6am-8pm that is out of the question.  I guess in writing this just blowing off steam.  Eventually i will get my sh** together.  Any ideas or advice. 

JUST TO UPDATE. I SAID I WOULD BLOG MORE SO HERE IT IS. THE CHRISTMAS CHALLENGE IS REALLY MOTIVATING. I HAVE STUCK TO LOW CARB A CROSS BETWEEN ATKINS AND SOUTHBEACH.  I AM HAVING A HARD TIME WITH THE WATER DEAL AND MY EXERCISE HAS NOT BEEN GREAT BUT I WILL GET THERE. WE JUST GOT A NEW PUPPY AND LIFE AROUND HERE HAS BEEN WILD. NOW THAT SUMMER VACATION FOR THE KIDS IS HERE IT WILL REALLY BE WILD.  WORK IS ALWAYS STRESSFUL.  I HAVE AN ORIENTEE WITH ME AND I WONDER HOW SHE EVER PASSED BOARDS.  I MEAN SHE IS JUST NOT GETTING THE WHOLE PICTURE AND I THINK THAT ONE DAY SHE WILL END UP DOING MAJOR DAMAGE.  I HAVE SAID SOMETHING TO HER BUT SHE IS CHINESE AND I THINK THERE IS A LANGUAGE BARRIER THERE.  WHEN I ASK HER SHE THINKS SHE IS DOING FINE.  SO I JUST DECIDED THAT TOMORROW I AM JUST GOING TO TELL HER WHAT I SEE AND FEEL.  SHE OTTA KNOW THE TRUTH.  MY DAUGHTERS BIKE WAS STOLEN FROM OUR YARD AND THE NEIGHBORHOOD KIDS SAW IT AT A PAWNSHOP AROUND THE CORNER.  WHEN I WENT TO GET IT HE WOULD NOT RELEASE IT AND STARTED TO CUSE AT ME.  SO I SPENT THE DAY AT THE POLICE STATION FILING A REPORT AND HE STILL WOULD NOT GIVE ME THE BIKE.  THE POLICE CAME AND NOW ON THURSDAY I HAVE TO GO DOWNTOWN AND SPEAK TO A DETECTIVE.  HE CAN NOT SELL THE BIKE BUT THIS HAS BEEN A ROYAL PAIN IN THE ASS.  WELL ENOUGH I HAVE TO GET READY FOR WORK AT 5:00AM. GOD BLESS ALL! 

is a killer. I mean I have every intension to lose weight the minute i stress out i eat. Even though i have been trying to get this under control it still is my worst enemy. So having lost ten pounds since joining this site, I have gained it back!!! I am back to my original starting weight and am gonna try this again. Going low carb because i have pcos and that is the best diet. I know it’s supposed to be a way of life but right now i just need to lose the weight. The lifestyle change can come eventually.  I need to get this weight off before my birthday in january. This may sound vain but i would love to wear a sexy party dress on that day. So having blogged today i will make every attempt to blog even if it seems boring as h*ll. Thanks for listening

This site is great and everything for support.But I think it should be a place to meet people that live near you to form exercise groups!  Any thoughts to that! Not that I don’t think the site is great but I just don’t have alot of time to sit in front of a computer everyday.

Well back from the falls. We left on Good friday and had such a good time! I was not faithful to SB at all. Made at myself of coarse. I learned alot about me though. I learned that I make excuses to go off my diet like vacation. I could of ate good but why i was taking a break from it all.  If i eat something that is not on my diet then i figure i just blew it and then blow it the rest of the day.  I also learned that work is a big trigger for me because the girls just eat whenever(emotional) and at a hospital food is everywhere.  The girl that is my biggest trigger is on vacation starting next week for i think a week so that will be a big help to me.  So knowing all this i decided to get back to the beach.  I love the way i feel doing low carb and it really does work for me when i stick with it.  I sat down and made out a list of meals that i like and can cook easily on days that i have to work(5am-8pm). I found a water bottle that i like to carry to work.  My husband will pretty much eat what ever i cook so on my days off the diet should be easy. Exercise on the other hand is hard. There is no way i can do it after work and up @ 4am is just dangerous for me.  I will be sitting down to figure that one out. Well today is day one back on board and the day was good. One day at a time.    

Happy easter to everyone! I’m going out of town to niagara falls for the weekend. Stay on your diets and talk with ya monday. 

I want to say thank you to all of my buddies for their words of inspiration. Shana & Angela alittle harsh but i needed it. Jayne and Jo i’m in. So ladies thank you again from the bottom of my heart. I have my sunglasses, towel and bathing suit ready. I’m heading to south beach and nothing is standing in my way!!!

I don’t know what has gotten into me. I was doing soooo well on south beach and 6 pounds away from my mini goal and bam! I start eating. Oh i’m not talking food that is in my plan. I could sit here and blame everyone. The girls at work, my husband for taking me out to dinner. Fact of the matter is i have been eating like a hoooggg since thursday and i don’t know why. Am i my own sabotoger? Am i keeping myself fat? I could have made good choices the last few days but i didn’t. Today i sit here and reflect on what the hell happened and still can’t put a finger on it. I recognized the triggers( cookies at work, out to dinner twice) and have came up with ideas but, who’s to say this won’t happen again. Maybe i am just destined to be fat and miserable.  I have tried every diet out there and low carb works well for me. However i get discouraged easily if i don’t see quick enough weight loss and tend to sway. I also have noticed on low carb that i get constipated easily. That might be too much info. but we all are adults here. Is this normal? I don’t know. Every ounce of me wants to wear a size 8. Mind you i’m only 5 feet tall but i’m very hippy and well indowd. I know alot of people might read this and think well make the commitment or stop eating when you are full. However if i was able to do that i would not be at this weight now. I really don’t know my point of this blog either. I guess just being able to admit that i was a bad girl the last few days helps. I am redirecting myself today back to south beach. When i go into these mindless states of chowing down i will get online and blog. Wish me luck!!

The reason? I have been struggling between atkins and south beach. Decided on sb on 3/6. I have followed it to a T doing my snacks at work and drinking 6-8 glasses of water a day. I started to do one hour of slow to moderate pace on the treadmill on my days off. which was 3/7 and 3/10. Today I weighed myself and i have lost 4 pounds. So excited this is 6 pounds from my mini goal. I have been sitting at 195 for weeks. Frustrated as h**l! I think nuts are the culprite for holding on to that weight. Goodbye nuts of all kinds for me. I have also started to lift weights again. I go alittle heavier than most would but i lift heavy patients all day so that is no big deal. Gonna keep this up. Thank you all my SB buddies for your support and advice!