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JUST TO UPDATE. I SAID I WOULD BLOG MORE SO HERE IT IS. THE CHRISTMAS CHALLENGE IS REALLY MOTIVATING. I HAVE STUCK TO LOW CARB A CROSS BETWEEN ATKINS AND SOUTHBEACH.  I AM HAVING A HARD TIME WITH THE WATER DEAL AND MY EXERCISE HAS NOT BEEN GREAT BUT I WILL GET THERE. WE JUST GOT A NEW PUPPY AND LIFE AROUND HERE HAS BEEN WILD. NOW THAT SUMMER VACATION FOR THE KIDS IS HERE IT WILL REALLY BE WILD.  WORK IS ALWAYS STRESSFUL.  I HAVE AN ORIENTEE WITH ME AND I WONDER HOW SHE EVER PASSED BOARDS.  I MEAN SHE IS JUST NOT GETTING THE WHOLE PICTURE AND I THINK THAT ONE DAY SHE WILL END UP DOING MAJOR DAMAGE.  I HAVE SAID SOMETHING TO HER BUT SHE IS CHINESE AND I THINK THERE IS A LANGUAGE BARRIER THERE.  WHEN I ASK HER SHE THINKS SHE IS DOING FINE.  SO I JUST DECIDED THAT TOMORROW I AM JUST GOING TO TELL HER WHAT I SEE AND FEEL.  SHE OTTA KNOW THE TRUTH.  MY DAUGHTERS BIKE WAS STOLEN FROM OUR YARD AND THE NEIGHBORHOOD KIDS SAW IT AT A PAWNSHOP AROUND THE CORNER.  WHEN I WENT TO GET IT HE WOULD NOT RELEASE IT AND STARTED TO CUSE AT ME.  SO I SPENT THE DAY AT THE POLICE STATION FILING A REPORT AND HE STILL WOULD NOT GIVE ME THE BIKE.  THE POLICE CAME AND NOW ON THURSDAY I HAVE TO GO DOWNTOWN AND SPEAK TO A DETECTIVE.  HE CAN NOT SELL THE BIKE BUT THIS HAS BEEN A ROYAL PAIN IN THE ASS.  WELL ENOUGH I HAVE TO GET READY FOR WORK AT 5:00AM. GOD BLESS ALL! 

is a killer. I mean I have every intension to lose weight the minute i stress out i eat. Even though i have been trying to get this under control it still is my worst enemy. So having lost ten pounds since joining this site, I have gained it back!!! I am back to my original starting weight and am gonna try this again. Going low carb because i have pcos and that is the best diet. I know it’s supposed to be a way of life but right now i just need to lose the weight. The lifestyle change can come eventually.  I need to get this weight off before my birthday in january. This may sound vain but i would love to wear a sexy party dress on that day. So having blogged today i will make every attempt to blog even if it seems boring as h*ll. Thanks for listening

This site is great and everything for support.But I think it should be a place to meet people that live near you to form exercise groups!  Any thoughts to that! Not that I don’t think the site is great but I just don’t have alot of time to sit in front of a computer everyday.

Well back from the falls. We left on Good friday and had such a good time! I was not faithful to SB at all. Made at myself of coarse. I learned alot about me though. I learned that I make excuses to go off my diet like vacation. I could of ate good but why i was taking a break from it all.  If i eat something that is not on my diet then i figure i just blew it and then blow it the rest of the day.  I also learned that work is a big trigger for me because the girls just eat whenever(emotional) and at a hospital food is everywhere.  The girl that is my biggest trigger is on vacation starting next week for i think a week so that will be a big help to me.  So knowing all this i decided to get back to the beach.  I love the way i feel doing low carb and it really does work for me when i stick with it.  I sat down and made out a list of meals that i like and can cook easily on days that i have to work(5am-8pm). I found a water bottle that i like to carry to work.  My husband will pretty much eat what ever i cook so on my days off the diet should be easy. Exercise on the other hand is hard. There is no way i can do it after work and up @ 4am is just dangerous for me.  I will be sitting down to figure that one out. Well today is day one back on board and the day was good. One day at a time.    

Happy easter to everyone! I’m going out of town to niagara falls for the weekend. Stay on your diets and talk with ya monday. 

I want to say thank you to all of my buddies for their words of inspiration. Shana & Angela alittle harsh but i needed it. Jayne and Jo i’m in. So ladies thank you again from the bottom of my heart. I have my sunglasses, towel and bathing suit ready. I’m heading to south beach and nothing is standing in my way!!!

I don’t know what has gotten into me. I was doing soooo well on south beach and 6 pounds away from my mini goal and bam! I start eating. Oh i’m not talking food that is in my plan. I could sit here and blame everyone. The girls at work, my husband for taking me out to dinner. Fact of the matter is i have been eating like a hoooggg since thursday and i don’t know why. Am i my own sabotoger? Am i keeping myself fat? I could have made good choices the last few days but i didn’t. Today i sit here and reflect on what the hell happened and still can’t put a finger on it. I recognized the triggers( cookies at work, out to dinner twice) and have came up with ideas but, who’s to say this won’t happen again. Maybe i am just destined to be fat and miserable.  I have tried every diet out there and low carb works well for me. However i get discouraged easily if i don’t see quick enough weight loss and tend to sway. I also have noticed on low carb that i get constipated easily. That might be too much info. but we all are adults here. Is this normal? I don’t know. Every ounce of me wants to wear a size 8. Mind you i’m only 5 feet tall but i’m very hippy and well indowd. I know alot of people might read this and think well make the commitment or stop eating when you are full. However if i was able to do that i would not be at this weight now. I really don’t know my point of this blog either. I guess just being able to admit that i was a bad girl the last few days helps. I am redirecting myself today back to south beach. When i go into these mindless states of chowing down i will get online and blog. Wish me luck!!

The reason? I have been struggling between atkins and south beach. Decided on sb on 3/6. I have followed it to a T doing my snacks at work and drinking 6-8 glasses of water a day. I started to do one hour of slow to moderate pace on the treadmill on my days off. which was 3/7 and 3/10. Today I weighed myself and i have lost 4 pounds. So excited this is 6 pounds from my mini goal. I have been sitting at 195 for weeks. Frustrated as h**l! I think nuts are the culprite for holding on to that weight. Goodbye nuts of all kinds for me. I have also started to lift weights again. I go alittle heavier than most would but i lift heavy patients all day so that is no big deal. Gonna keep this up. Thank you all my SB buddies for your support and advice!

Today has just been one of those days. I had a sh** last two days at work and today i was off and have been in my pj’s all day!! This might be too much info but i don’t care.  I have been doing atkins and switched to south beach the last day of february and today for the first time in about 5 weeks i had two slices of bread and whole wheat noodles. ya know i don’t regret it but now my belly hurts.  Sometimes i just get sooooo tired of watching everything that goes into my mouth. Although i know i will always have to be careful it is just very frustrating!  So starting tomorrow i plan on getting back on the SB plan and starting fresh with the first two weeks. I have herniated discs in my back and a bad knee and i think i’m just having some boohoo time today! To all of my buddies thank you sooooooooo much for your support! To my fellow SB buddies i am back on track3/6. I found an updated  list of acceptable foods online at a SB site. More options so i think i’ll be alright!!

I read the south beach book on2/28 and 2/29. Started the diet the 29th. I found a web site and it listed yogurt, milk, beans as ok foods. Then i read that in order to do the diet you must eat 3 meals a day plus, 2 snacks and dessert. That seems like a ton of food. Even before dieting i did not eat that many times a day. Well at least i don’t think so. Now my question is do i really need to eat that often? I work 12 hour shifts and can not always get away to eat a midmorning snack and sometimes lunch can be around 2-3pm. So then i don’t eat a afternoon snack either. If anyone knows the answer to this let me know because i don’t wanna think i’m doing this right and i’m not. If anyone knows of good breakfast ideas let me know. I feel better since friday but think about food a lot. I think that is just hormonal though.